what i feel right now?

every week is just the same thing.never change.
i thought when i do something outside there will be new things everyday.
but otherwise i learn something new everyday.i learn to know someone.
i learn the new words everyday.n sometimes i read that makes me more understand the new english terms. i need to know the marvelous words to makes me different from other people. when i went back home n try to communicate with him some new words that i learn today.
its just a satisfaction for me when other people saw me who try to speaking in english n i am proud of myself when i can pronounce words much better than before.
i feel i am knowledgeable person and want to hone myself to be much much better.
the hone itself means to improve(the new words that i have learned.
huhu...i feel 12% smarter... hihihi...i am nothing when my 1st day in atcen.
just a little hope with uncomfortable in the presentation things.huhuhu...
but eventhough i am improving myself, i feel sad because a day by day my friend got a job and they left the training.a day by day there are a few people in class.
and the worse thing is we should move up to level 14 because the new batches are ready to come to start their training session soon.
i am not satisfied because there are about a week before they come to join us.it is not fair to just throw us up to level 14 because it requires us to let the staff open the door for us.
we all feel uncomfortable because have to interrupt them while they are working.
we feel bored because we cannot charging up our power to become more energetic.the sillibus was dry n feel sleepy.huhu...it was not trainers fault because they just do what they have to do.never mind it just take about 2weeks to finish the training.i just can't wait to see Ken again...huhuhu....
hope my friends will still together to finish the training n graduate with jovial. huhu...sometimes i could'nt get the right words to elaborate something. im still learning how to correct my misleading modifier and dangling words also the passive voice.hihihi...its quite difficult to learn but an interesting if we understand our mistakes. work on it.